ALL ABOUT THE FAMILY - COVID - 19
Hi Friends
Man is it tough to get out of bed each day right now and face the world. Can we please just put this crap on pause. Or fast forward.
I have been wanting to write something for a few weeks now, but honestly I have been at a loss of words. I'm confused. I feel lost. I'm not sure each day what to do. Yet my job is to lead, but in all honesty, each day I wish I just had a simple job as I am completely dumbfounded on what to do. I don't have the answer, yet deep down I know I need to find them.
Every morning I wake up to my amazing Finn Finn and my incredible wife Lauralee. They are my everything, and my reason for trudging on each day.
Little man is 13 months old and doesn't have a clue, yet I stare at this pic of him every day and I can see terror in his eyes. I want to protect him. To hold him. To shelter him. But at the same time, I want that same for me. I am not sure of what to do on a daily basis, yet all I can do is keep on trying.
My family is my most important thing for me right now. Yes, I feel for all of those out there who will suffer from this Virus. WTF. Seriously. I hope I am healthy enough to persevere. I do. And I don't want anyone to suffer from it. But at what cost are we to suffer. My entire life is poured into my business. Every dollar of life savings. Every penny of retirement. It is all tied to BASE. And yet, I have a wife, a 13 month old, and a baby girl who is coming in August. I'm so lost.
I'm at such a loss on what to do, as I know MILLIONS of others are as well. Not a few people here and there, but globally, millions upon millions of others are out there with these same thoughts.
I wake up each morning with a purpose and a plan, but as soon as 10:00 AM hits, it all changes. In fact just today the city of Boulder issued a mandatory shut down of everything effective March 24th at 5:00 PM. This will absolutely cripple our 6 year old business. What to do?????? Where do we go???? I ask these questions to myself each day. At what cost do we put our own selves at risk? To be honest, I will do anything, ANYTHING, to protect my son and my family. If my business goes under in 60 days because we are on lockdown, am I better off in 60 days, or am I better off now? The stress that surrounds this question on a daly basis is unbearable.
Aside from my immediate family, my BASE Family is also my family. And I feel for all of them. We have over 1100 family members in and around the world. They are my everything. They have adopted Finn as their own. They send him presents. They look after him like he is their own son. Yet, I feel for them. And I hope they are truly OK. We not only have a community, but we have a deep rooted family.
I don't know what I'm trying to say here. Perhaps just venting. Perhaps just putting stuff on paper so I can read it to my son at a later date. I'm not sure.
I'm lost. I'm confused. I don't know what to do. Each day a new curve ball is thrown out at 110 mph. It's insane. And I know all of you are feeling it as well.
In the end, all we can lean on is family. Cherish our family. Love our family.
I love my family. I love Lauralee. I love Finn more than anything in the world. I love our new little girl who will be here in August. And I love my BASE Family. I honestly love all of them. I go to work each day as I feel I have a responsibility to each of them. My BASE family. My BASE customers.
I'M SO CONFUSED
In closing, I want to share some of my favorite pics of my Family as well as my BASE Family Members which they have shared with me over the past few months. I hope you can find some rays of sunshine in these dark times. We will all pull through this together.
Below are some pics of my crew. My TRIBE. MY FAMILY. We will persevere.
We will all get through this....TOGETHER.
Dearest Matt,
I finally had a moment to read your blog. I connected with it instantly. Not bc of the virus but bc of “life”. I learned in the hardest of ways that every hope, every dream, and even your own identity evaporates in a single instance. I couldn’t believe that it was happening and honestly, that I lived through it. Even today, with so much to be thankful for, the weight of such great loss brings not just tears but heart wrenching sobs and the inability to breathe. Scott holds me through each of these moments and helps restore my faith in God. It hasn’t been an easy road. Time does not heal all wounds. And, unfortunately, I’ll never be “me” again. BUT life and love does go on. Hold on to the greatest of these things. Never give up. If you have your loving wife, healthy babies and the support of the truest of friends, you WILL get through this!! I will keep you in my prayers and support you along the way. When I see how much you love LL and your babies, I remember the “me” that died and take a hard look at the “me” that was born of such loss. It’s not something I’d want for anyone but God’s plans are bigger than ours. Chin up, pray and LOVE.
Evelyn ❤️
We are human and basically we all feel vulnerable now. The world was made round so we cant always see what lies ahead, so we just do our best each day. Someone recently said, just be where your feet are. The answers will come and we will rise to whatever challenges lie ahead. We wouldn’t be doing what we do as athletes without courage. Right now we need to dig deep and find the courage to persevere, and be kind and share our love. Maybe this is an opportunity for a human correction. Stay well and wise. #whythisteam.
All we can do is wait this out. It will pass. Look at the depression age! I’m sure they had it 10 times fold worse than this as we have it now. Matt we will all make it through. We all need to stick together as a family and trudge through this. But having a sole goal each day will help. Getting up and living each day the best you can. Dont look past what today will bring you is all we can do.
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